Thursday, August 6, 2009

Once a cheater...


There is a beautiful dream I have, dearest, of us in the valley of darkness.

A lovely valley, of my creation, I tread where without fear, of losing you.

A fragrant valley, where I can be my own self, without losing you.

A valley of dreams, where I do not have to repress, my desire, divine desire.

A valley where I am never lost, for it is in me, my labyrinth of lust.

I shall not fear here, the codes of life, in the war to survive.

Where love shall not bind us, neither shall a mirror of conscience.

Where I will be the bird, free to leave its cage, and return.

I have made my valley of dreams and habit keeps bringing me back here.

You can't keep me from it, dearest, it runs in my veins, the taint.

I shall despair in darkness, in my valley of darkness, without losing you.

My dream, dearest, doesn't let me be.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Dear Damocles,


Living in doubt,

I wondered how that must be?

Praying that the silken thread does not snap,

let the blade fall.

With a feast set before your eyes, with the maiden ready and waiting.

With a certainty that there is one, with the heart ready and waiting.

 Let the blade fall.

Pray that the betrayer thread does snap,

I wonder how that would be?

Living in surety?

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Desperation:

There was once a hope. A sliver of light. It came in through the shadows. It promised me the stars. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars!

I clapped my hands in glee. Grew and bloomed under the welcome warmth. Made a daisy-chain of dreams and wove it into my hair. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars!

It made a halo around the grief. It made the edges all soft. It blurred the past and it made me blush. It made my smile true. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars! 

I danced, a mad two-step, a dizzying waltz.  I walked light, a little above. I cried for joy...Oh! How I cried for joy. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars!

I knew how to possess. I knew the ecstasy of touch. I knew the safety of a wall behind me. I knew desperate want. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars!

It made my heart beat faster. It made me believe in clichés. It made life wear a sheen of rose. And it made me feel loved. And I twirled and laughed and sighed. It has promised me the stars!

Then it wrapped up its little bag. Said the stars are a little too high mistress. Said that you feel a little too much mistress. Said I need to leave now mistress. Said you were a little too foolish mistress.

Then it said the stars are a little too high mistress.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Neon Lights- to Prajakta

The flashes of life, that I see.

Those glimpses, surrounded by a halo of chic.

Embodied by you, made up into a face, paint and all.

The rouge, the shadow and lines, of a doll, ready for fun.

Out of your mouth, with every kiss, I yearn, to suck at the lights, take in.

Red and blue, flashing and gay, you tell of past misery, I hear a past restrained.

Red and blue, flashing and gay, the wings of a moth, I yearn to fly.

Lead me into the neon boulevard. I yearn to live your life.

I yearn for the red and blue.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Jilted!!!

All the mighty swords rose up and shouted,
“ Me! I shall!” not one to be doubted;
And bravo! They all went to slay the groom errant,
Who left with just a note handed to his aunt.
“ No! Can’t be, impossible, to leave freedom unable.”
Up and away towards liberty he went,
Without a backward glance being sent;
Young and handsome, he had too much to lose,
Left was variety still, from which to choose.
No goodbyes, no farewells,
Not the tinkling of the wedding bells
Nothing stopped him in his way,
because ahead the love of his life lay.
Sometime, somewhere she would be found,
But definitely not the one to whom he was bound!!!

Hastily gathered and hurriedly briefed,
The swords, for the poor bride, sat and grieved.
Nay, not for long were the tears shed,
The bride soon cried out for the groom’s head.
All the bachelors in the party rejoiced,
A chance from which not to be shied.
The bride sat quietly wiping the tears,
A lady she was, not given to fears.

Hark! What does one here hear???

Oh! What scratching, fearful squeaks, and those claws…
It’s just a rat m’lady, the guard bows.
A rat! Just a rat! In the bride’s room?
Help! Save! Call the maid, bring a broom.
But! What luck, everyone gone?
For his sins the groom would atone.

Little by little the furry fiend approached,
Frightened but by no one reproached.
The bride simpered and cried in anguish,
Looking all scared and squeamish.
What luck! Someone’s here to save,
The bride in vain trying to be brave.
Shining armour and a glittering sword,
No, a mousetrap and a smile broad.
“My lady, maybe I could be of service.”

Which was quite as gallant as “ allow me, miss.”
The bride had never seen such bravery,
How could it be present in one of the knavery?
For wasn’t this the one who was caught,
For stealing water during a drought.
Ah! But past mischief are quickly forgotten,
In lieu of today’s circumstances rotten.
“Oh! Thank you, thank you, kind sir,
Deliver me into some clean mouseless air.”
“My pleasure.” said the worthy servant,
and up in arms he went against the rodent,
With a gleam in his eyes he set up the trap,
but the mouse was a little of a born brat.
This side and that he hopped and skipped,
From somewhere atop the bed a voice piped,
“Couldn’t you just get it out of the room?”
The trapper for the first time looked,
at the damsel in distress who had him booked.

The first is the last, impression, that is,
Love at first sight, was a motto of his.
The lady with her skirts gathered,
Standing over the pillows feathered.
Looked to him like an angel without wings,
“Oh! what beauty! I wonder how she sings?”
the mouse forgotten, quietly disappeared,
his role was now over, It appeared.
Anyway, there he had seen gone,
A lady mouse beautiful and lone.
Love was in the air, as the mouse showed,
The bride too, by the one to whom she owed,
Was smitten in an instant, bravo!
But how could romance go on without pain and woe!
The groom mentioned above, suddenly reappeared,
Guilt and remorse all over his face were smeared.
“I am so sorry my love, forgive me, would you?”
Off course, she could not, what a silly view!
But she had to, being a lady and such,
Regarding her marriage there was not choice much.
So without further adieu, let us the moment seize,
Objections if any, speak now or forever hold your peace.
“Stop, please, just one little thing”, the trapper said,
To him, melancholy and grief were everywhere spread.
“ Just one little thing,
Your ladyship dropped your wedding ring”
He handed the little jewel in those hands so soft,
The room applauded, you don’t see a hero oft.
Those big round eyes now filled to the brim,
Her hero, the one beside her, or was it him?
Too late for a point to ponder upon,
Or early still for a scheme to spawn.
“No I don’t” screamed the jilted bride,
giving the groom a surprise snide.
She handed back the paper so cherished,
“ No, can’t be impossible, to leave freedom unable”
The trapper turned back, too overjoyed to see,
The bride meaning every syllable to be.
Away she went from all trappers and grooms,
and presently has a career in decorating rooms.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Hubris

There is a wall around me.

A shell, a wonderful warm blanket.

A comforter, a quilt.

A shield, a protector.

The 'slings and arrows of outrageous fortune',

they hurt me not, they weaken me not.



I do venture out from time to time.

Get tossed and turned. Safe in the knowledge,

My wall is waiting, to be gathered around.

To close me up again, to let me lick my wounds.



To let me gather around me, my fragments.
Stick them together again and make them me.

It waits patiently, to let me live my follies.

And everytime I fall, my pride, dear pride,
props me up again.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Avarice

Hear, the burning of the primal need.
Surrounded by the cacophony, the clamouring...
of want arising.
A thousand black screeching crows, descend,
make living flesh shrivel,
rip out the deepest, slumbering desires,
bleed the finer passions dry,
feast on the glorious unbound, smorgasbord.
Dries, wilts, turns into dust,
back to the mutilated caricature of man.
We are after all, the playthings of desire,
operated by that magical open sesame- 'I Want'